Tuesday, September 22, 2009

looks

The tempest has taught me indeed;
'how violent the silence falls'.
Blur are the unhappy eyes
but not the way they look.

evolution

Obnubilate are the words
i whisper, but eyes speak it all.
There was no "I", even, no "You" at a time;
we evolved from nothingness and diffused ourselves
within the limits of our carmined wings.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

feral blues



Yesterday,
within the swarthy lone night
I unwrapped "YoU" newly
"YoU", slowly burning carmined
and
"I", keep falling;
mellowed,dethawed
as molten wax.
---
Today,
I am walking a road,
that was never mine.
Its the curves
I had choosen to find "YoU"
at a node, betrayed.
---
Confidence! is so poor to hold on often!
---
Tomorrow,
I may laugh; once,
louder, more louder
while holding a rose
upon the palm
and
failing to discriminate between
YoU and PaIn.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Mute




The bemused muse
draping her lambent eyes;
beckoning me wistfully,
Piercing the eternal opacity
of my withered Heart.

Friday, September 4, 2009

fellow



I presume
that i walk alone
but still i see
a road constantly
walking with me.

Stillness



Can't the heart
be still?
Or beating
is the only sound
that stillness
breathes?

Road


How sad
the road lays tonight!
May be it doesn't like me
walking alone.

Suppose!


Suppose this night
stays on,
will you borrow
some more love from
the sullen fog
or
shall i wait
for the moon
to delude my eyes?

loneliness


You extend my existence
beyond infinity
and i confine myself within you.

Sung



I hear
what the words murmur,
do you?

nature



I close my eyes
and see
the dew drops
making love with
the deep green seams.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

October


Let the stars
yearn tonight
and moon ,scream louder.
Blame not the azure sky,
October has passed away.

Bewrayed


Ravaged sentience,
quiescent eyes
cloistered soul
all grew me up
when You bewrayed.

Borrowed


These breathes ,
i have borrowed
from yesterday
and, if I may,
i would borrow
an ounce of pain,
a bucket of tears,
and some emptiness
to paint my nights
with hues of dark.

Except


Blue moon,
pink sky,
green rose,
all I have
except
you and love.

Sold


My flute plays with
the pitches of
You,Love
Shadow,Pain
Sigh! It could know,
I have sold my feel at thee.

Inebriate

These scars itch, bleed
when wind wraps a tone of you.
These nights now never fall short
to hold you in me
as I have enough darkness
to let me get drunk.

Deal


I had a deal
with the rain,
It'll refract the sun
only in "Red"

And---
in promise
You wont
shed my joys
from your eyes.
--
---
----
I'll drip the sepals
in crimson red
before "YoU" palm
my bare words up
being withered
at the Dusk.

In-sane

Sedimentation
is not a mere process.
Wrecked mountain lays numb
and---
gravity does the rest...

Why would who impugn?
You show me two fingers
I ll pick the one...

A fistful destiny can't
make me "Your's"

As...
I want to believe
I am
I N S A N E

Paroxysmal



Transmuting my
eternal obsessions,
the dusk has polarized
my aberrant move
upto a "Sweet Pain"
called "YoU" .

Mute Rhapsody


Each the time "U" come
snivelling to me,
"I" stay calm eluding away
from your eyes.
The agony disperse
over the scorched heart.
Few rains are unexpected !
And "YoU" guess the right
always, as before
and
start Loving
those "Beguiling Eyes"
again.

White roses


Even
“YoUr” heaven is a
part of my hell
and---
“YoU” , not the whole
any more…
I have promised the dusk,
I wont ask for that forbidden “Red”.
You may deny those white roses
Of not being
“YoUrs”.

Depots


When darkness falls,
Solitude enshrouds my little abode,
YoU brim out of
my heart.

Dredging it all up, i stay mused---
bemusingly.

The pretences of the past,
hunts me in and within.

Scouring over the cupboard,
I recollect
those photo albums,
folded letters,
and dried flowers
Buried within me, somewhere , I could never reach…

Reflections


A mirror broken,
broken---
abides million.
Shattered, my face
appeared and
splintery, hopes of "Urs"
Wrecked, dreams of "Ours"
"Reflected"---,
and dull it
Shined.


Poetry


Wrecked
"Me",
blended with a tingle of
"YoU"
and resolved wistfully
into melodies of "Our" life.

CaLcuLaTeD


Two pages of "YoU"
added with two letters of "Me"
to dilute till "Saturation"

And---
One season of rain got subtracted
to nurture the eternal yearnings within .

Two pieces of dreams, stolen
from a glance of "Ur" eyes ,
result obtained
is a night shortened
to hold you upto
"Completeness"
along the lines "YoU"
are addressed invisibly.

(---)


Words, draping each chapters
of pains, ensconcing deep deep
beneath my heart where
i have buried your memories
before your betrayal could
obliterate my hovered
desideratum.

Vagabond

A
Vagabond
is never addressed
to the eyes known.
He steps,
emptiness diffuses.
and blabs ,
pains ripple.


Ghazal

When
Silence resonates
in my murky Island,
Often it rains there on the streets,

The grasshopper sings,
trickling the rain drops too.

and I hum again the
Ghazals of my pain and pleasure.

Obsession



This night, so alone!
Sobs within its ire
could it know,
it holds a void of
"Isolation"
and "I" to fill that
void with full of
"YoU"

Dusk



Each grain of darkness
beckons me
to come out of your curbed looks.

Tomorrows dawn;
a new chapter to my sin

and
"YoU"
ahh...
bruised again!
Seeing the

Red-Dusk Alive.

Aberration


Two feet of land in front of me,
two ways diverged.
One is upto
the heaven of perdition
and
the other, upto
the hell of joy

Snuff


Succumbed
by the noose
you put,
that black snuff
is yet cleaving
down, awaiting you
to fill its eternal emptiness.



Abhorrence

Two
drops of rain had
changed the whole view
through the wet windowpane.
Won’t it be enough for me to
be purged out of the abhorrence
of "Ur" accusing eyes
after a teary bath?

Kiss

Untill
"YoU''
appeased the
desiccated kloof of my desire,
I was never knowing
even one "KISS"
would cost
so!!!

The last kafkaesque



When
that last
"YoU"
collapsed over my trust,
it resonated upto the hades.

All conflicting polarization
never lasts bare,
often one takes the final upshot.

I was there with you to fill upto the last breathe
and remained unnoticed.

This inane heart had its last murmur,
of the last blessings you left,

"GO TO HELL".

Definitions




I
have
my own definitions
about you and rest of the world,
those least agree
with the way
they define us.

A moony shower



When
the moon was
landing over the highway
in a calm cold night,
she had come to have her bath
in my solitude.

Closure


Me- The sun of the early dawn.
You- The calm river.
Out come- colorful happiness, reflected all around.

Cross

I follow
the mirage
of your arrival
at the cross, where
your trails meet with
my hopeless eyes.

Redemption

I define a redemption
rear to a mask,
I wear
to hide you from the eyes
of my own.

Forbidden fruit

I
have
taken that
forbidden fruit,
to come out of the
dead life
and your
alive memories.

Two cascades

Two
cascades;
incessant upon
my dry cheeks,
keeping me drenched ever
with you and without you too.

Cactus


You
may come one day
to bear the thorns of my sins
on your soft palms
and me, to satiate your thirsty soul again.

Incomplete



No temples
in sand, persist
the waves for the next
and
you can not leave me
in a lurch
when my words will yearn
for completeness...



Me



Evoked
within my island of
pain and pleasure,
i sing , i cry
And wait
for a storm to break me apart
and
rain to fix me up again.

Spectre



The
spectre
too has a
perforated heart
against all fantasy
to see you avowed
at its love.

Surd




I
had
promised
not to cry
but
tears did never listen.

Stray petals

As
memories
flood over the mind
and
my hermitage slumbers deep ,
“YoU”
sink there
within the unplugged lines
to reunite the
stray petals of my heart.

Offering

Picking the odd one out,
you proved the uniqueness
of your fingers.

My exile within the censures
of your silence
will be the last offering
to my benumbed heart.

Rebirth

your closed eyes
rippled my silence,
your tears
erased
my impulsions.
me,
at the last phase
of the night;
the next dawn
would be yours
upon
my still palms.

Friday, August 28, 2009

Undressed




Instinct
----
You, always being a spinner of yarns,
allured me hiding your own feet
and what i followed was none
other than my own shadow.


Inevitably
----------
Inevitability is not
always inevitable to be held on,
upon a time, even all the oceans of the world were
insignificantly saline.

Insanity
---------
One day, You would throw up the sponge
of all the hypothesis being so poor
to make this earth stationary.
I may not toe my line of assumptions
to restrain the happiness
within my own sphere of Insanity


Pardon me of being so ill-bred here and ignore this write to pay me off.[:(]

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

The (Solitude) of a (Vagabond) (Dream Seller).


Solitude
---------
How long can you
hold your tongue
oh' dear solitude(!)
Sing a song for me.
I am bidding this day,
bidding this night
and fleeing from thee.

Vagabond
---------
Stop me not
hey birds, hey trees;
beyond that see, darkness
is waiting for me.

The dream seller
----------------
You give me a fistful pain,
i shall sell you some dreams;
dreams in red blue green,
which one you need, dear soul?


V@@S...

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Butterfly, Reflections and Etcetra...


Butterfly
---------
This "butterfly"
is as naughtier
as like you.
It comes ,
kisses my palms
and flies away.

Reflections
-----------
Reflections seem
so nonoptical, when
its crystalline for my eyes
to transmit through the
'silence' you wear.

Etcetera
---------
stubborn, my words acquit
when ever
i start defining the "YoUness" in me
and hence
an etcetra does the rest.

V@@S...

Tomorrow when you ll wake up-)



Tomorrow when you ll wake up,
you ll find the radio
untuned-upset-mute at a corner,
broken bells of the alarm
laying over the floor;
heart, face crimsoned-clotted,
trickling rain drops
clinging the photo frame
and gradually falling down.
----
Tomorrow when you ll wake up,
you ll find these worn off papers
from the note books (both from the rough and fair)
flying all around
and words,letters falling apart (Some yours-Some mine),
a narrow line of the ants gathering
to dry up the coffee cup (Some you had sipped and the rest i too had)
----
Tomorrow when you ll wake up,
you ll find an eternal emptiness
rolling from this side of the bed to that side
and shadows of the kisses laying numb over the wrinkled blanket.
----
Tomorrow when you ll wake up,
slothfully, holding the pillow tight
you ll bosom that void, a void of my absence
and gently looking through the window
you ll find the last leaf of love
has fallen apart.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Un-named-


The more "YoU" ll hate me,
the most "YoU" ll love
that broken vase,
where i had planted a
-Rose-,
-Love-,
-You-.
----
The more "YoU" ll elude,
the most you ll come nigher
to hold on the darkness
swaying my solitude
back and forth.
----
The more you ll hide
the moments shared,
the most it ll unveil
a pain under you,
a burning scar,
a relationship
that has remained
Unnamed.

V@@S...

Elopement

One day, shedding
all the inhibitions
we ll elope
to a planet
to moor the music
of your silence
with the
rhymes of my soul.

Caravan-Space

Dew-Blood,
Paroles-Impostures
all give the same touch
to my stoic skin.
---
Inorganic; I hold on
a life, so iambic
cached in between
rhymes,words
I defer.
---
Wanderlust(?)!
Yes, I am
as days and nights
are significantly indifferent
within my Caravan-Space.

Rain



This Rain
wont sing for me
as long
these tears
adhere
to YoUR
ruthful eyes.

Lust


"You"
being the inevitable
essence of my beingness,
ample convulsively
as a lust
that blossoms
pink and soft
to sustain
the dew
smoldering over
YoUR
Rosy Lips.

Stores



Now
I am tired of
this emptiness,
mute walls,
table clock
and poetry books,
those; one day
had a store of "YoU"
in a stubborn me.


Yores


Yores!
ahh!
the fervid yores!
this memories allure me to run behind,
chasing the butterflies,
dropping pebbles into the pond
and watching the ripples ruffling;hugging the shores,
searching the missing palettes of the ebon-arc-rainbow,
canescent over the paddy fields,
railing the shadows of the tinctured clouds neath the argent moon
along the lone wood track,
and---
following the flute of an eternal euphony near the horizons,
I wander before the perfumes of the jasmine that beguiles me of (-YoU-)
the night offers me an oddment dark,
i close my eyes,
folded palpebras drape me deep
and i dream of an existence ,
a formlessness,
a dot of a non-dimensional measure!


V@@S...

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Sound

Cherubic, its i hear
--mid night foot steps--
--the bangle sounds--
all that remained plangent
along the corridors..
--
---
within the closed pages of my diary
the less understood lines murmur
when the words get rearranged..



V@@S...

Life , Love and In Between...

Life

I see a null dimension
between a crest and
the adjacent trough.
--
---
You know,
I know,
They too know--

--(that)--
A wave propagates ;
if and only if
a medium is there...


Love

I wont hesitate
to break the vessel of clay,
I had made by my own.
"U" have to believe
that the same hand which
writes a poetry for "U"
--(even)-- can press "Ur" neck
tight too...
And... In Between

I have died once
twice--
thrice---
and i am still alive
to die once more...


V@@S...

feral blues

Yesterday,
when power had gone
I met "U" newly..
"U" (---) glowing--
glowing red
and
"I" (---), keep falling
as molten wax..
---
Today,
I am walking a road,
that was never mine.
Its not "U"; rather the curves
I had choosen to find "U"
at a node, betrayed...
---
Confidence! is so poor to hold often!
---
Tomorrow,
I may laugh; once,
louder, more louder
while holding a rose
upon the palm
and
failing to discriminate between
YoU and PaIn...

V@@S...

Monday, May 25, 2009

Scrapes

Livid-Dark-Whits
'bruises',
Phlebotomizing from the veins;
blues of a wraith bears no grandness.
Yesterday-Tomorrow
are all indivisible entities;
blots of what i have erred,
heart strings of the untouched vibes,
restrained breathes from eons
and a
fissile heart...


V@@S...

Monday, January 5, 2009

Stoical


Let me-
Let me let You know,
I would never get bored
of my
Insomniac nights,
Scattered words
or of my
Perpetual Solitude!
--
---
I am Stoic of being
a non citizen to Your
genitive planet...

What else?

V@@S...



P.S, This is just an ire, eccentrically analogue to my paranoiac belligerence.

Hate me, to payoff the poem!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Partake.

I was knowing,
"YoU" would come
one day;--
to claim those all,
we had shared ever;

A space from the room---
Two shelfs from the cupboard---
And the left side of the bed,
as the window being nearer---,,,

except few consequences
shared---;
within the Eyes...


Sigh!
The memories are so indivisible!
as---
You know, I know
they farm ardent to
the fleeting time
relative to
"YoU" , "I" and "Us"

Friday, January 2, 2009

Meera



The Serenity edified---

Capitulation sanctifying
her virginity gleamed
the Aureole...

Purity in her eyes
invoked the flutist nigher...

Quiescent she stayed---
And---
merged within her
Elysian Love
for ever...


V@@S

Radio...



Excruciations---
tuned up...

Yearnings---
beated out...

Agony---
amplified...

And---

A ripple ruffled through
the dampened self
to break
it's
Slumber...



V@@S...

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Rendezvous




Crusade smiles-
Timid eyes--
Muffled words---

Silence-
Promises--
Adieu---



V@@S...

Reminisced...

Frayed
tint of emotions,
had ever imbued
---
Eyes forked---
Eying a mute clamour
against
multiple smoulderings...

And---
Again she borrowed,

"Two palms joined
to hold the prohibitions shed..."

"Four fingers aspired
to pat her misplaced hairs..."

And---

A false exuberance...


V@@S...(Is Dead And Resurrected...)

I N S A N E

If
every miasma
of loosing
"U"
holds the
essence of
my failure,

Reviling
eyes of
"Urs"
would then
exculpate
my paroxysm
to be called



I N S A N E




V@@S...

S O L I D I F I C A T I O N

Million deterrennces
negating my insanity
of
being "Urs"
and
of
not being too
left "Me" obsolete
within the
tomb
of my forlorned
necropolis...
Opaque,
wasn't it?
"U" said
one more drop...
"I"-(eyes) did...
Lids
filled in...
with a
beguiled



S O L I D I F I C A T I O N

Addiction...

At the forlorned pages

of an Unexpressed "U"

The words rusted

in silent murmurs...

Is hovering

still an addiction ???

I have forgot,

the last time

I aspired "U"

to ripple over

"Me" ...

L I P S

Pink

is it,

i get phenomenally allured by ???

"She" said---

One blink

transforms

the

Dew -into- Wine...

Blinked---

"i"

numb...
--
---
-----
Lost

(in)

Divine.


V@@S...

Dementia

Every congealed
obsessions of mine
may befuddle the same culpabilty
over "U"
that You had ever thrown to me of
being Insane...
Now "I"
wont efface the memories
to propagate...
And---
You have to believe that
it chooses the same medium
to hit "U",
as it does to "Me"

4:30 am

You laid your eyes,
i walked along that
precluded boulevard.
Mesmerised as if i am,
propelled into the hades,
predefined...
Aidoneus---
has a beauty of it's own !

A little girl offered me a
white bloom and disappeared
within it, some where...

An old lady with a baggage
of raiments, filthy, offered me
a gold coin and disappeared
stepping back...

A mother feeding her infant
grinned at me and veiled herself...

Now You eyed me again,
betokened i am to take me back.
The alarm rang
as usual---
One journey ended
and---
the next
Geology, Honours paper- III
at 9:30 am...

Yogi


The body being,

Gross---
Subtle---
and
Casual---
more often holds me
within my inertness
of being mine.

I see;
I am not, who i am.

Still "U" claim
me of being "Urs" !

I ll decay one day
in a lone wintery night.
My corpse, coffined tight
to breathlessness
will append myself to my
eternal existence.

What ever i had, with "U"
or the same "U" had, with me
will merge within the delusions
of Attachments.

And "U" ll find a
"Love",
being an essence
of those elysian elements,
that has transformed
this lustful self
into an identity
of a



Yogi...



V@@S...

Samadhi

When the senses are eliminated
The "I"ness prevails no more.

Till "I"was "I"
"I"was not "I"
And---
now
"You" are not "U"
rather "You";
the absoluteness
I have been yenning for.

I retrieve timidly,
last night
You stepped in,
lapped me up,
patted over my fore head
and whispered gently
at my ears.

"There is no I
even no You too",

What we see all
are parts of
The Truth
unexplored,
The trance in
eternal Bliss.


V@@S (Resurrected)...

School bag...


A rough note,
geometry box,
coverless books,
broken chalk pieces,
a little kite,
inkless refills,
a clay toy,
a cricket ball,
crumpled paper boats,
childhood innocence,
erased memories,
sleepless nights,
twenty four years...
---
I have prisoned those all
in that school bag,
i have lost on my way...


V@@S...

An Ode to the awful India after the Serial blasts.



What remained as a vestige
of the carnaged artlessness,
proclaimed a quoin in the
whodunit of the
Twilight zone.

---

White noise,
Red noise;
each tends to be parabolic
at one instant or the other

---

Few pauses---

---

Twitched heart beats
will grow calmer.
Yarrows will ensnare peace.
After each a demise,
we ll exist perpetually...


V@@S...

Pocket money



A nailpolish,
Red ribbon
and one ink pen
for my exam.

"Ruko na bhaiya
Han, ek kitkat chocolate bhi lana"

"Ja pagli, tu to abhi badi ho gayee hai"

---

The tenderness, prohibited
couldn't count
the parted miles.

---

I still recall those days
you had ained my
full pocket money



V@@S...

p.s - The irrationality within the paragraphs has been intensionally maintained and could not able to change few original statements too.

Erasures...

Infidelity
agonizes---
Memories
maraud---
Mystic erasures
dapple
blots to the
strayed crepuscules.
Glutinous Betrayals
reigns over
My
Sleep less nights
within the
Chapters Of Probabilities.


V@@S...

Three Candles

"We" have three candles to night
unlike four on the other days.
---
When night feels sleepy,
winter melts at the flame
and---
You get tired of staring
at my face,
from "Ur" eyes
I read,
what "U" need.
---
A little darkness,
that lets "U"
be mine
Inseparably...


V@@S...

Cheerios


Memories;
derelict, cloisters-,
the moment
we nutrify
the immiscibility
of the
uncommon essences
between
"Us".
---
Fiery
blood cells
sear pauses
in veins.
---
Lachrymal "Cheerios"
endures,
when
Love eludes
in
Infidelity.




V@@S...

Crepuscule

Quiescent dusk
tinged the window,
Carmined ---
ravaging the silence
restrained
before aeons.

Derelict, a body
secluded, lounged
over a known shoulder.

Alas---

Blues would have
never seemed
so faithful before.


V@@S...

Obstinacy


Why it feels
so often, as if
"U" are here-
Dreamy eyes,
those untied hairs-
hiding "Ur" face
Slothfully on my lap,

Serene--
the breeze,
unveiling the
blooming innocence---

A glimpse drops...

And here,
memories incinerate
me within infinite obstinances.


V@@S...

Strayed

Dreams strayed,
Shattered---
Red, blue and black.
Time inherits the
"Trust"
And---
we only nutrify
the same.
Changes are too relative,
to both You and Me
So we strayed.
Now , no more
"U" , "Me" and "Us".
You are happy being "U"
and "Me",
what I am supposed to be.

Urn...

We used to have
uncommon choices.

ball pen-gel pen
rain-winter
red-blue.

My poems never battle
with her novels,
neither her present
with my past.

There, in the shrine
she meditates,
while I muse over
the clouds from the window.

Steeped in a promise,
common to my torpid palms
she croons from the Urns...
--
---
with a scud of whiffs
from the forlorned necropolis.


V@@S...

Aum...


A word uttered.
Waves diffused.
Spirit inhaled
a
Subtle Consciousness.
Life, repleted by the
Ethereal energy.
Now---
Thou self
got imbrued
with
Sanctification!


Pravaas...

Nonsense scientific syllables.


"You"



"Probability"
holds an explanation
for "You".
Each the time
a coin being tossed, I wish,
I wont have to repeat the same.
Biased, the result comes.
I have owed the failure closely
again.


"Me"



I was supposed to be Inorganic,
But how could Insanity
been better proved!


Relativity



Relativity remained as a
meaning less concept,
because Particles
never willed to chase light.
Now,
don't blame Time
and---
Einstein too.



V@@S...

Pitchless

Sullen flutist
lounges.
Ahh...
ripples a
false ebullience.
Love;Beguiled
intunes,
when
eyes skip over
memories.


V@@S...